WEEK 3 - 4 kilos gone, 36 to go - present weight 104 KG

So another week and another kilo gone! YEY!

I started the week full of good intentions and even did my 20 minute exercise on Monday.

On Tuesday, I had to prepare for my mother in law's funeral which took place the next day. I took it upon myself to make her coffin spray with white and pink roses. My husband also needed a black suit so I spent Tuesday morning shopping for supplies. It was really hard to avoid all the temptations of snacks, and Greggs etc. But I was proud to do so!

On Wednesday it was the funeral. When we got back hubby decided to get fish and chips but I said no! I made some chicken piri piri and had it with salad

By Thursday I was having cravings and my daughter and health coach told me the reason is because I am not eating enough. So I went online again and had another look on healthy eating options. It is very hard, because whenever I get stressed, bored, happy, relaxed, sad, or basically any emotion I want to eat rubbish. 

I also found out that I might not be obese because the term has been made obsolete as to not upset people ... dahh!! Now I am "quite overweight"... Why do I need to be molly coddled?? I don't! Quite  overweight does not sound as urgent as obese and I might have carried on sitting on my backside eating cream cakes pretending I was big boned and aiming to diet perhaps after the festive season.... Only perhaps. After all Valentine's is in February and I am surely going to get some chocolates from my darling hubby so it might be better to wait until then. Having said that, hubby's birthday is at the end of February and I always make him this scrumptious chocolate cake so maybe we should wait until then. Now thinking about it, it is always kind of hard to start dieting in the winter, and as we are now already in the end of February why not start a new diet with spring? Then again my birthday is in April so I might as well wait until then..... do you see where I have been? I rather stick to OBESE thank you very much!

"Now thinking about it, it is always kind of hard to start dieting in the winter..."

Keep healthy people!

WEEK 2 - 3 KILOS GONE, 37 TO GO!

I am now 105 KG! This week I manage to shed 1 kilo and I am feeling well proud of myself.

At the beginning of the week I was still a little under the weather but managed to stick to a healthy diet. I still haven't used my trainers, but I had decided this is the week I will kick start my exercise and meal tracking. My daughter suggested I use My Fitness Pal. I have no time to go looking for alternatives so based on my 2 key decision triggers - my daughter is an excellent researcher and the app is FREE - I decide to bite the bullet.

I did a little dancing in the kitchen ( please don't laugh! I was checking my stamina and getting psyched up for a Bollywood evening .... I'l talk about it another time), I am so terribly unfit, it's ridiculous! From Monday I am vouching to do at least 20 minutes of exercise EVERY DAY! and yes I did say EVERY DAY! The way I see it, is if I have managed to so far shed 3 kg only by sticking to a sensible diet, imagine what I could achieve with exercise! Plus I don't want to feel like an old lady. I am going to take dance lessons in the future and I want to be able to do it!

The baggy jumper and leggings look!

I went shopping yesterday and was also considering buying some clothes but jeez!!! I must say this years fashion is fatty heaven!! How annoying!!! In the year I am determined to loose weight, in the year where a fitted dresses fashion would have kept me on my toes, what do we have?!?!?! Yes you guessed it! The baggy jumper and leggings look!

How terribly disappointing is that? The shops must be hiving with delighted fatties like myself buying clothes! And the worse thing about this fashion is that it allows you to deceive yourself! Because the materials are all stretchy, you can really "fit into a 12"! Something you would never be able to do with a fitted suit!

Anyway, I devised a plan to keep me focused. My mother always told me to look at others to see myself. It is very easy to forget how you look if you avoid the full body mirror long enough so I started looking at all these fatties to see how many of them in my opinion were bigger than me. It is incredible how many fatties there are around once you start taking notice. Sadly I realised I'm on the top 25%! I then decided to observe the contents of peoples trolleys and then guess their size before looking at them - MY GOODNESS!!! what an enlightening exercise! It really is not rocket science 99% of the time - I now can see what they meant on that show a few years ago - you are what you eat!! So my focus on what I eat and its impact has been reinforced 10 fold!

For now, I will go to a charity shop to pick a few things to see me through and once I reach goal I will bin everything in my wardrobe and adopt a vintage look with pin skirts and tight fitting jackets!

Have a nice week everyone!

WEEK 1 -2 Kilos gone, 38 to go!

So last week I started my crusade against obesity and my quest to lose 40 kilos. After I wrote and published the first post on this blog I felt totally determined. In fact I felt slimmer already!

So I started the week full of resolve. I did a lot of online research and besides a lot of miracle pills and miracle diets I actually concluded that the only way to loose weigh is non other than eating properly and exercising dah!!!. I also found out that based on my weight and life style if I want to loose 40 kg I can only consume 1567 calories per day. I used this fantastic calculator online , in it you also have to state how much exercise you are willing to do. I am sure I will increase this, but not wanting to set myself up for failure, for now I committed to doing lightly exercise at least once or twice per week! 

I decided however that the first thing to do was make some drastic changes to my diet. 

Elvis used the sleeping diet

I started the week with a VERY restricted diet. For breakfast little porridge with semi skimmed milk for breakfast, Protein and salad for lunch and salad or fruit for dinner. This lasted about 3 days. by Wednesday I was feeling starved, grumpy and without energy. I went back to the net to research diets and perhaps get a diet plan. You will be shocked at the diets I came across, From a chewing diet, where you chew and then spit out the food (not a handsome site at a restaurant); the vision diet where you wear blue tinted glasses which supposedly will make your food look disgusting and trigger loss of appetite, to the sleeping diet where you sedate your self and sleep instead of eating. This last one was apparently used by Elvis Presley. Judging by his last photos I guess he needed a lot more sleep!

the colour of my plate matters

I also came across an article telling me the colour of my plate matters! See?! I knew it wasn't totally my fault I'm fat, I am seeing my lawyers and suing IKEA for not putting health warning on their dishes!

Jokes aside it was obvious that I was not going to be able to cope with such a rigid diet, so I sat down and after some though came up with this:

Breakfast - semi skimmed porridge with a little honey/semi skimmed latte

Mid Morning - A low fat yogurt 
Lunch - piri piri chicken/grilled fish/steak and salad + fruit
Dinner - salad or soup + fruit

The other thing I learned was if I exercise I am allowed more food! In other words the more active you are the more calories you burn. With this in mind I realised how important exercise was going to be on this quest so I went on line and ordered a pair of trainers! (oh came on! give me a chance, it is a fresh start and I will use them! Promise!).

On Wednesday, my back decided to remind me why I NEED to do this! It went into spasm and I ended up in bed for 2 days, on strong pain killers and anti inflammatory tablets. As I lay literally crying in pain my instinct was to get a few cakes and just stuff myself to make me feel better. But I have a little angel/policewoman at home.... my daughter! And she would have none of that! She is helping me get into a good routine, and I could not do this without her help and encouragement. Im going to do this first for my health of course, but also because I want to show her that with determination everything is possible! I have always told her that... time to put my money where my mouth is!

By Thursday I could feel my resolve starting to weaken, but I managed to stick to a healthy diet for the rest of the week, and allowed myself a couple of treats during the weekend. Now all it is missing was some exercise. But I am waiting for my back to feel ok again as I can't afford to miss work, or better said get behind with my work!

Looking at the scales this morning I was over the moon! 2 kilos gone! BOOM!

I'm off to celebrate with my favourite type of exercise... latin dance in the kitchen!

Have a great week people!!!!

Mrs. X you are Obese.

I stared at the scales in disbelieve ... 108 Kilos! My face burned with shame and all over a sudden all the excuses I had secretly been using just dissipated out of my mind. A voice came into my head with a familiar tune but  different lyrics "I'm fatty and I know it! tu tu tu turu ru ru ru"

"a wobbling pot shaped woman,
with a double chin and a plate
of doughnuts in front of her"

I am 45 kilos over weight. (7stone) and according to the NHS site, I classify as obese! The word makes me shudder. In the past whenever I heard that word I pictured a wobbling pot shaped woman, with a double chin and a plate of doughnuts in front of her. Not me! Well, It was time to realise I was going that way. I had no one to blame but myself, even though I tried!! And oh my God did I try!!

First on the list was of course my husband. Despite the fact that as part of his "husband job description", he always takes the blame for everything that goes wrong in my life, in this case he really had some serious accusations to respond to. The first thing was that back in 1994 when I married him I was a size 8. I didn't eat much and stuck to a very limited diet. Not because I intended to look after my diet but because I was quite picky with my food. Mr X introduced me to all kinds of food and use to laugh at the fact that I had never tried things like Chinese take away, pizza, curry, lasagne, fried chicken and of course the worse of all foods: fish and chips!

Mr X had introduced me to all these foods and the practicalities of calling a number and having your food delivered! Furthermore, Mr X was very overweight and loved to eat. So in order to make him happy (another excuse) I learned to make really rich dishes with cream, butter, mash, bacon, etc. There was also always lots of snacks in the house like cheese, crackers, biscuits, cakes, coke, crisps, chocolates, etc.

Second on my list of factors to blame were of course my children. I had 2 children so naturally they must have made me fat and must have caused me to ruin my figure....

Third my life style. I was so busy I had no time to cook so it was so practical and easy just to get a ready meal or something you chuck in the oven and it's done.

But the truth is that I was alone in the blame department. Mr X had actually managed to loose most of his weight and is now less overweight than me. He does enjoy his food and overindulges on chocolates and cheese but he does not force me or even tempt me to eat. My kids had left me with a size 12 figure and 64 kilos and unless I had some phantom pregnancies I am not aware of, being pregnant really could not be used as an excuse for my obesity. And in terms of life style the truth is I am not busier than most people.

"For a while I convinced myself that I actually liked being curvaceous "

I have been kidding myself. I have been listening to the press that in recent years has come up with lots of campaigns to make miserable fat women feel better. I rejoiced at the slagging off of all the skinny models and the anti size 0 campaigns. I became an Adele fan because it was so nice to have a fat artist besides Pavarotti that is in the top charts. For a while I convinced myself that I actually liked being curvaceous - yet another term stolen from the Hollywood  pin up girls from the 50s to make us fatties feel better!



I remember rejoicing at the fact that Marilyn Monroe was a size 14! I used slogans like " I rather be chubby than starving" and "I am not a fashion victim" ... who was I kidding?!

Of course I also drew on the genetic excuse. After all I have ONE auntie that is fat! (never mind the other 20 close female relatives, including my mum and grandmother that are not). I am also big boned and obviously my bones got even bigger in the last 10 years.

I cannot forget to also mention the happy fatty syndrome with all the "make me feel better" tumbler photo quotes to go with it, such as "I am a big girl with a big heart and an even bigger personality!" , and the historical element. I was unfortunate to have been born in the wrong time. Yes in the 15th Century women were fat and desired to be fat. Just look at the renascence paintings! Look at the bleeding cherubs!! They are fat and close to God!


I went through a phase of wearing supporting pants and even got myself a corset, after all surely everyone my age must use this kind of thing to look more elegant...The corset actually worked despite the fact that I could not sit down, eat or breathe much while wearing it. I actually tried to do it once and almost passed out during a meeting in the bank.




Now I was confronted with 108 kilos and the word obese. Nothing could change the fact that I am big, fat and ugly...( ok maybe not ugly, but that is how I honestly feel), nothing besides MYSELF. It is time to tell Mika to shut his face! "Big girls you are beautiful", my backside!! But I must say, he cheered a lot of us fatties up and it was nice to wobble around the kitchen being fat proud of being fat! But being fat does not make you beautiful and I don't believe any fat woman would not prefer to be a healthy size 12 if she was given the choice and it did not require a lot of hard work. I also feel achy and tired and cranky most of the time. On top of that last year I was diagnosed with degenerative disc disease, which sounds worse than it actually is but makes my back seize at times and become so painful I can't even walk! My knees are also always sore. 

So this is what I am going to do. I am taking the bull by the horns and between now and September 2021 I am going to loose 45 kilos. I will use this blog to give you a weekly update of my progress and to keep myself on track. I don't like being fat, I don't feel beautiful at all and most importantly I don't feel healthy at all! I am 46 years old and feel like im 60!  Time to take action! And yes I do think wonder woman's bum was huge!

Bye for now